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XIX
GOD MADE US ALL
RENA
was convalescent from a two-weeks' illness when her brother came to see
her. He arrived at Patesville by an early morning train before the town
was awake, and walked unnoticed from the station to his mother's house.
His meeting with his sister was not without emotion: he embraced her tenderly,
and Rena became for a few minutes a very Niobe of grief.
"Oh,
it was cruel, cruel!" she sobbed. "I shall never get over it."
"I
know it, my dear," replied Warwick soothingly, -- "I know it, and I'm
to blame for it. If I had never taken you away from here, you would have
escaped this painful experience. But do not despair; all is not lost.
Tryon will not marry you, as I hoped he might, while I feared the contrary;
but he is a gentleman, and will be silent. Come back and try again."
"No,
John. I could 't go through it a second time. I managed very well before,
when I thought our secret was unknown; but now I could never be sure.
It would be borne on every wind, for aught I knew, and every rustling
leaf might whisper it. The law, you said, made us white;
but not the law, nor even love, can conquer prejudice. *He spoke of my
beauty, my grace, my sweetness! I looked into his eyes and believed him.
And yet he left me without a word! What would I do in Clarence now? I
came away engaged to be married, with even the day set; I should go back
forsaken and discredited; even the servants would pity me."
"Little
Albert is pining for you," suggested Warwick. "We could make some explanation
that would spare your feelings."
" Ah,
do not tempt me, John! I love the child, and am grieved to leave him.
I'm grateful, too, John, for what you have done for me. I am not sorry
that I tried it. It opened my eyes, and I would rather die of knowledge
than live in ignorance. But I could not go through it again, John; I am
not strong enough. I could do you no good; I have made you trouble enough
already. Get a mother for Albert -- Mrs. Newberry would marry you, secret
and all, and would be good to the child. Forget me, John, and take care
of yourself. Your friend has found you out through me -- he may have told
a dozen people. You think he will be silent; -- I thought he loved me,
and he left me without a word, and with a look that told me how he hated
and despised me. I would not have believed it -- even of a white man."
"You
do him an injustice," said her brother, producing Tryon's letter. "He
did not get off unscathed. He sent you a message."
She
turned her face away, but listened while he read the letter. "He did not
love me," she cried angrily, when he had finished, "or he would not have
cast me off -- he would not have looked at me so. The law would have let
him marry me. I seemed as white as he did. He might have gone anywhere
with me, and no one would have stared at us curiously; no one need have
known. The world is wide -- there must be some place where a man could
live happily with the woman he loved."
"Yes,
Rena, there is; and the world is wide enough for you to get along without
Tryon."
"For
a day or two," she went on, "I hoped he might come back. But his expression
in that awful moment grew upon me, haunted me day and night, until I shuddered
at the thought that I might ever see him again. He looked at me as though
I were not even a human being. I do not love him any longer, John; I would
not marry him if I were white, or he were as I am. He did not love me
-- or he would have acted differently. He might have loved me and have
left me -- he could not have loved me and have looked at me so!"
She
was weeping hysterically. There was little he could say to comfort her.
Presently she dried her tears. Warwick was reluctant to leave her in Patesville.
Her childish happiness had been that of ignorance; she could never be
happy there again. She had flowered in the sunlight; she must not pine
away in the shade.
"If
you won't come back with me, Rena, I'll
send you to some school at the North, where you can acquire a liberal
education, and prepare yourself for some career of usefulness. You may
marry a better man than even Tryon."
"No,"
she replied firmly, "I shall never marry any man, and I'll not leave mother
again. God is against it; I'll stay with my own people."
"God
has nothing to do with it," retorted Warwick. "God is too often a convenient
stalking-horse for human selfishness. If there is anything to be done,
so unjust, so despicable, so wicked that human reason revolts at it, there
is always some smug hypocrite to exclaim, `It is the will of God.' "
"God
made us all," continued Rena dreamily, "and for some good purpose, though
we may not always see it. He made some people white, and strong, and masterful,
and -- heartless. He made others black and homely, and poor and weak"
--
"And
a lot of others `poor white' and shiftless," smiled Warwick.
"He
made us, too," continued Rena, intent upon her own thought, "and He must
have had a reason for it. Perhaps He meant us to bring the others together
in his own good time. A man may make a new place for himself -- a woman
is born and bound to hers. God must have meant me to stay here, or He
would not have sent me back. I shall accept things as they are. Why should
I seek the society of people whose friendship -- and love -- one little
word can turn to scorn? I was right, John; I ought to have told him. Suppose
he had married me and then had found it out?"
To
Rena's argument of divine foreordination Warwick attached no weight whatever.
He had seen God's heel planted for four long years upon the land which
had nourished slavery. Had God ordained the crime that the punishment
might follow? It would have been easier for Omnipotence to prevent the
crime. The experience of his sister had stirred up a certain bitterness
against white people -- a feeling which he had put aside years ago, with
his dark blood, but which sprang anew into life when the fact of his own
origin was brought home to him so forcibly through his sister's misfortune.
His sworn friend and promised brother-in-law had thrown him over promptly,
upon the discovery of the hidden drop of dark blood. How many others of
his friends would do the same, if they but knew of it? He had begun to
feel a little of the spiritual estrangement from his associates that he
had noticed in Rena during her life at Clarence. The fact that several
persons knew his secret had spoiled the fine flavor of perfect security
hitherto marking his position. George Tryon was a man of honor among white
men, and had deigned to extend the protection of his honor to Warwick
as a man, though no longer as a friend; to Rena as a woman, but not as
a wife. Tryon, however, was only human, and who could tell when their
paths in life might cross again, or what future temptation Tryon might
feel to use a damaging secret to their disadvantage? Warwick had cherished
certain ambitions, but these he must now put behind him. In the obscurity
of
private life, his past would be of little moment; in the glare of a political
career, one's antecedents are public property, and too great a reserve
in regard to one's past is regarded as a confession of something discreditable.
Frank, too, knew the secret -- a good, faithful fellow, even where there
was no obligation of fidelity; he ought to do something for Frank to show
their appreciation of his conduct. But what assurance was there that Frank
would always be discreet about the affairs of others? Judge Straight knew
the whole story, and old men are sometimes garrulous. Dr. Green suspected
the secret; he had a wife and daughters. If old Judge Straight could have
known Warwick's thoughts, he would have realized the fulfillment of his
prophecy. Warwick, who had builded so well for himself, had weakened the
structure of his own life by trying to share his good fortune with his
sister.
" Listen,
Rena," he said, with a sudden impulse, "we'll go to the North or West
-- I'll go with you -- far away from the South and the Southern people,
and start life over again. It will be easier for you, it will not be hard
for me -- I am young, and have means. There are no strong ties to bind
me to the South. I would have a larger outlook elsewhere."
"And
what about our mother?" asked Rena.
It
would be necessary to leave her behind, they both perceived clearly enough,
unless they were prepared to surrender the advantage of their whiteness
and drop back to the lower rank. The mother
bore the mark of the Ethiopian -- not pronouncedly, but distinctly; neither
would Mis' Molly, in all probability, care to leave home and friends and
the graves of her loved ones. She had no mental resources to supply the
place of these; she was, moreover, too old to be transplanted; she would
not fit into Warwick's scheme for a new life.
"I
left her once," said Rena, "and it brought pain and sorrow to all three
of us. She is not strong, and I will not leave her here to die alone.
This shall be my home while she lives, and if I leave it again, it shall
be for only a short time, to go where I can write to her freely, and hear
from her often. Don't worry about me, John, -- I shall do very well."
Warwick
sighed. He was sincerely sorry to leave his sister, and yet he saw that
for the time being her resolution was not to be shaken. He must bide his
time. Perhaps, in a few months, she would tire of the old life. His door
would be always open to her, and he would charge himself with her future.
"Well,
then," he said, concluding the argument, "we'll say no more about it for
the present. I'll write to you later. I was afraid that you might not
care to go back just now, and so I brought your trunk along with me."
He
gave his mother the baggage-check. She took it across to Frank, who, during
the day, brought the trunk from the depot. Mis' Molly offered to pay him
for the service, but he would accept nothing.
"Lawd,
no, Mis' Molly; I did n' hafter go out'n my way ter git dat trunk. I had
a load er sperrit-bairls ter haul ter de still, an' de depot wuz right
on my way back. It'd be robbin' you ter take pay fer a little thing lack
dat."
"My
son John's here," said Mis' Molly "an' he wants to see you. Come into
the settin'-room. We don't want folks to know he's in town; but you know
all our secrets, an' we can trust you like one er the family."
"I'm
glad to see you again, Frank," said Warwick, extending his hand and clasping
Frank's warmly. "You've grown up since I saw you last, but it seems you
are still our good friend."
"Our
very good friend," interjected Rena.
Frank
threw her a grateful glance. "Yas, suh," he said, looking Warwick over
with a friendly eye, "an' you is growed some, too. I seed you, you know,
down dere where you live; but I did n' let on, fer you an' Mis' Rena wuz
w'ite as anybody; an' eve'ybody said you wuz good ter cullud folks, an'
he'ped 'em in deir lawsuits an' one way er 'nuther, an' I wuz jes' plum'
glad ter see you gettin' 'long so fine, dat I wuz, certain sho', an' no
mistake about it."
"Thank
you, Frank, and I want you to understand how much I appreciate" --
"How
much we all appreciate," corrected Rena.
"Yes,
how much we all appreciate, and how grateful we all are for your kindness
to mother for so many years. I know from her and from my sister how good
you've been to them."
"Lawd,
suh!" returned Frank deprecatingly, "you're makin' a mountain out'n a
molehill. I ain't done nuthin' ter speak of -- not half ez much ez I would
'a' done. I wuz glad ter do w'at little I could, fer frien'ship's sake."
"We
value your friendship, Frank, and we'll not forget it."
"No,
Frank," added Rena, "we will never forget it, and you shall always be
our good friend."
Frank
left the room and crossed the street with swelling heart. He would have
given his life for Rena. A kind word was doubly sweet from her lips; no
service would be too great to pay for her friendship.
When
Frank went out to the stable next morning to feed his mule, his eyes opened
wide with astonishment. In place of the decrepit, one-eyed army mule he
had put up the night before, a fat, sleek specimen of vigorous mulehood
greeted his arrival with the sonorous hehaw of lusty youth. Hanging on
a peg near by was a set of fine new harness, and standing under the adjoining
shed, as he perceived, a handsome new cart.
"Well,
well!" exclaimed Frank; "ef I did n' mos' know whar dis mule, an' dis
kyart, an' dis harness come from, I'd 'low dere 'd be'n witcheraf' er
cunjin' wukkin' here. But, oh my, dat is a fine mule! -- I mos' wush I
could keep 'im."
He
crossed the road to the house behind the cedars, and found Mis' Molly
in the kitchen.
"Mis' Molly," he protested, "I ain't done nuthin' ter deserve dat mule.
W'at little I done fer you wa'n't done fer pay. I'd ruther not keep dem
things."
"Fer
goodness' sake, Frank!" exclaimed his neighbor, with a well-simulated
air of mystification, "what are you talkin' about?"
"You
knows w'at I'm talkin' about, Mis' Molly; you knows well ernuff I'm talkin'
about dat fine mule an' kyart an' harness over dere in my stable."
"How
should I know anything about 'em?" she asked.
"Now,
Mis' Molly! You folks is jes' tryin' ter fool me, an' make me take somethin'
fer nuthin'. I lef' my ole mule an' kyart an' harness in de stable las'
night, an' dis mawnin' dey 're gone, an' new ones in deir place. Co'se
you knows whar dey come from!"
"Well,
now, Frank, sence you mention it, I did see a witch flyin' roun' here
las' night on a broom-stick, an' it 'peared ter me she lit on yo'r barn,
an' I s'pose she turned yo'r old things into new ones. I would 't bother
my mind about it if I was you, for she may turn 'em back any night, you
know; an' you might as well have the use of 'em in the mean while."
"Dat's
all foolishness, Mis' Molly, an' I'm gwine ter fetch dat mule right over
here an' tell yo' son ter gimme my ole one back."
"My
son's gone," she replied, "an' I don't know nothin' about
yo'r old mule. And what would I do with a mule, anyhow? I ain't got no
barn to put him in."
"I
suspect you don't care much for us after all, Frank," said Rena reproachfully
-- she had come in while they were talking. "You meet with a piece of
good luck, and you're afraid of it, lest it might have come from us."
"Now,
Miss Rena, you ought 't ter say dat," expostulated Frank, his reluctance
yielding immediately. "I'll keep de mule an' de kyart an' de harness --
fac', I'll have ter keep 'em, 'cause I ain't got no others. But dey 're
gwine ter be yo'n ez much ez mine. W'enever you wants anything hauled,
er wants yo' lot ploughed, er anything -- dat's yo' mule, an' I'm yo'
man an' yo' mammy's."
So
Frank went back to the stable, where he feasted his eyes on his new possessions,
fed and watered the mule, and curried and brushed his coat until it shone
like a looking-glass.
"Now
dat," remarked Peter, at the breakfast-table, when informed of the transaction,
"is somethin' lack rale w'ite folks."
No
real white person had ever given Peter a mule or a cart. He had rendered
one of them unpaid service for half a lifetime, and had paid for the other
half; and some of them owed him substantial sums for work performed. But
"to him that hath shall be given" -- Warwick paid for the mule, and the
real white folks got most of the credit.
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